Well, this is a first. I have no clue why I want to put this post in English . It is not giving up on Arabic, but it is more like what I want to say is not clear anyway so I might as well use English before it gets rustier..
Lately, I've been very disordered. I want to do so many things without having enough time for any of them. I want to write about so many issues; and I keep postponing them. Circumstances won't give me any chance. I feel so guilty towards my blog.
During the last couple of weeks I was abroad doing a partial medical check up; and out of it I did'nt do one part. I frankly chickened out. It is the first time I feel this way. Actually it is the second time. The first was when I had to pull one tooth out.
I've never been such a coward, but lately fear is invading me. So many things scare me, and I have no clue why? Is it getting older .. or lonelier; but more, I think it is why put myself in a situation that I may not know how to handle.
Life can be great, good, bad, or ugly; but I take each day at time. There are things I can take and others I can't take. One of the things I can't take is loud noise and yelling. It is irritating for me to converse with anyone who shouts or yells, I feel my eardrums trembling under the pressure. Straightforwardness is another issue that bothers me. Why can't people be straight in whatever they say or do. No specifics here, but I really hate it when someone gives you an appointment then they change their minds in the last minute with a ridiculous excuse.
Let me tell you about some of the things I go through. For the second time in less that one year I spelled tea on the keyboards of my labtops. The poor Sony Vaio went sticky at first; I had ordered an new keyboard which arrived a month later . I did the same thing to HP laptop keyboard in my last trip; which killed it and it is not working any more. Normally, I am a careful person and never this careless but I don't know what happened to me.
I think it is enough of this boring stuff.
See you all In my next Arabic Post.
18/8/2009
Bint Saif
عمت صباحا ..
ReplyDeleteوإن كتبتي بالانجليزي فسنرد بالعربي لذات السبب الذي كتبتي فيه بالانجليزي ;p
قضية عمل أشياء كثيرة وعدم كفاية الوقت تحدث للكثير من النشطاء فكريا .. وأحيانا أفكر : لم لا يكون الجميع نشطاء فكريا فينقسم العمل عليهم ؟ لأني أرى أناسا يستمتعون بعمل اللاشيء !
وسلامات وخطاكم السو بالنسبة للفحوصات .. نتمنى أن يكون كل شيء دائما على ما يرام ..
أما الخوف فيقال أنه نصف الشجاعة .. ولا ضير فيه طالما لم يتحول إلى مرض ..
اما الحياة فهي المدرسة التي نتعلم منها أكثر كل يوم .. وأحيانا لا نتعلم فنكرر ذات السيناريوهات الخاطئة !
وأخيرا هنيئا للاب توب على كرمك الشخصي وسقيه بالشربت كل فترة ;p
تحياتي ..
أخي الكريم .. أحمد الحيدر
ReplyDeleteالفكر النشيط متعب كثيراً .. أريد أن أكتب وأن ارسم .. وأن أقوم بكثير من الأمور .. وليس هناك متسع من الوقت ..
وأرجو من الله أن لا يزيد عامل الخوف أكثر ..
الحياة بالفعل مدرسة .. وكل يوم هو درس جديد في موضوع ما ..
بالنسبة للاب توب .. اللائحة الأم تحتاج إلى تغيير .. وربما أجزاء أخرى
شاكرة مرورك الطيب
نورت بوستي
بنت سيف
I wana make a comments on your saying:
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I am a careful person and never this careless but I don't know what happened to me
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It is not mine but I'm keeping it with me...because I belive its contenet is so true. I feel it is suitable to the maine quistion
put as a title.
I call it life teaching:
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Life
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that every moment they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless -- the people you meet affect your life.
The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whomever you open your heart.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally Not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.
Talks to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen.
Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then go out and live it.
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الكاتب/
عزيز النفس
August 21, 2009 11:15
عزيز النفس
ReplyDeleteأخي الفاضل .. اشكرك جداً
فالاقتباس عن الحياة رائع وفيه العديد من الحكم التي نحتاجها .. لنستمر في الحياة
Life is full lessons and surprises, we just don't know when we will experience them.
Many thanks for your addition
:)